I WANT TO GO FOR EVOKE TODAY!!!!!!!
he(they?) will be there lor..
and it sounds so nice.

I WANT TO GO!!!

read through some of my past post

i felt that i changed.

ever since that incident, i totally lost the will to be nice to people even if they're nasty to me.

i tried changing my attitute and behaviour because of him. & now..



i shall be nice once again! (= 'cos i believe i can do it since i could do it last time.

jeris, im sorry too. can we revive our 无聊疯笑组 ma (can add in cy toooo? =x or we make a new grp for the 3 of us?) ? i don't wish to continue this avoid-me-when-u-see-him thing. 'cos frankly speaking, i hate it, totally. i don't see why i should be the one giving way, why should i be the one giving in to his selfishness.



k, is there anything wrong with the picture in my blog? =x i cant see the banner for some reason. =(



oh and i bought my prepaid card le. $10.50 crap! im hard on cash now. ordered 1 top and 1 bottom from taiwan side, mommy's sponsering.

okay, i've been negleting my blogger site for way too long. *busy wiping off the dust*

haha, im too used to blogging in LiveJournal. hahaha, all because of their cutecute mood icons (if thats what you call 'em. HAHA)

yups.

changed my skin to this simple & neat skin. i've a sudden urge to change my taste & all, so i've ventured out of EMO BLACK, into BRIGHT COLOURS like white. :D ok its sound a little to exaggerating. but, thats me.

however, my wardrobe is still BLACK, 'cos i look nicer in black ! :D HAHAHA

yups. my friendster is in greyish colour now. it looks nice (: hehe


oh the most important thing for today.......

I HAD FONDUE.

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AND ITS SOOOO HEAVENLY. i felt like i was floating for a moment. beyond words. :D HAHAHHAHAHHA

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i feel so happy today. hehe.

had all the papers back except for Social Studies and English.

as for now..

Amath - 32/40 (A1)
Emath - 29/40 (A2)
Chem - 32.5/50 (B3)
Physics - 33/50 (B3)
Chinese - 60/100 (B4)
Geog elective - 15/25 (B4)

omgoodness. majority is either B3 or B4. sigh. my results are really slipping. how am i gonna pass elective geog?? my usual class tests are all failing marks lo. haix. my combine humanities ah.. ):

finally opened up my blogger site, after so long. LOL. :D

yup. end here. till i've smth nicer to blog. haha yup.

MOTIVATIONS?!

oh my mama, i need motivations!

motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations motivations

MOTIVATIONS

geog is tomorrow. for god's sake, TOMORROW. i cant get a screw thing into my sososo pathetic brain!

help!

of all times, now? why now? thanks to you, i could not get to sleep last night, waking up at every hour. HA. thanks alot eh (note de sacarsm) thanks for making me feel so restless now to study. i did not very appreciate it that, though =/

okay, perhaps i should take a break now :D (i am! i'm blogging now, thats my term of a "break") i shall really really really chiong tonight.

forest, you BETTER get into my brain by TONIGHT! diffuse, osmosis, run, jump, crawl, walk or any other way, you just better get in! roar!

WRONG MEDICINE?

i really wonder if i ate the wrong medicine yesterday. lol. something made me take the blame and i do not wish to quarrel further. he had hit my soft spot. roars.

but wadever. i shall be a good girl and NOT quarrel with him regarding it, but if he ever steps onto my toes AGAIN, i'll not hesistate to be mean, and i mean it.

watching some HK show regarding fashion design now. lol! so no link haha!

hmmmm. shall stop here ba. :D

A NEW BEGINNING!

i've put the past entries, those unpleasant/posts that make me think twice ones, into draft alr. :D i shall start afresh! im completely sure that i've put the past behind me :D perhaps i should be thankful for what lawrence had said. he woke me up. hmmm

like what people always say, old one don't go, new one won't come. but im not awaiting for a new one (: im happy with the life im leading now. & i've told joanna that i'll only start again if i can handle it myself, without bothering my jies or my friends. yups.

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haha, 3 papers down alr! one more paper tomorrow and i would have completed 50% of the common test! :D

jiayous! :D

hehe, celia is a happy girl today (:

thanks jeris! =D but i noe she wont be able to see this, haha (: nvm. =D

physics test tomorrow, "coach" cy and jeris today when they came to my house. so like, half playing maple half studying? lol, of cos i finished studying first -.- lol. yups, hopefully it will be a nice paper tmr =) hehe.

celia is really very happy today! =D *yay! haha! yup end here ba.

(jies, jeris, cy.. sorry for tolerating all my nonsence for the past few days. thanks! hahahahah!! =D)

woke up really really really really late today. can call me pig for all u like now -.- LOL, cos i woke up at 2+pm, hehehe. i shall not deny now lol. -.- LOL!

yup, den chionged homework after lunch, and like, omg so many questions i dono how to do ah! wahhh :( nvm ba. sighhh

den yup. went maple for a while den came out, cos really don feel like mapling le. no mood. den come back tt time, wlao. just some pple seriously cant think lah. cant they tell that im busy. BUSY?! !!! roar! seriously lah. its like, im busy lor, thats why i nv reply lor. den still come call me, like, wad lah. haiya forget it. im not suppose to be angry now -.- lol so okay.

did de research for my compo. and after finding one article, i give up. she want to skin me alive up to her le la. -.- roar? lol

school tmr, sians. why must it be week 1? can they change week 1's timetable to week 2's?? week 2 is soooo much nicer la. wahahhaha xD~ hehe. yup. k le, go back my bed den can slp le lol. (my bed become my study "table" again LOL)

din touch maple at all today, wahahaha xD cos im having some .. urm.. "hanakimi marathon"? LOL yeah, watched hanakimi after tuition till now. now still watching, just taking a break (lol no lah, cos it is loading yup LOL.) hehe. nice nice nice! hope there is a part II =(

hmm yeah. camwhored a little today cos im dead bored.

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abit zi lian lah, but who cares. LOL. when im in de mood to take pix, den i'll take de (hint hint lol) =DD yup =D

yeah. school holidays is ending soon, and i dread going back =( but.. hmmm ohwells.. can see him ma.. so i should be anticipating it instead? ... -.- hmmm ah no point grumbling lol.

yep. wanna go trim my hair ah.. hmm see first ba lol. (:

oh and i heard that andy is teaching dance at studio wu now. hoho i wanna go learn!! but too bad, he is teaching hiphop... im more interested in J/K pop! WAHAHAHA xD~ i dont care i wanna learn j/k pop!! but after O's perhaps. yup. lol. (:

yup! i leveled twice today -- should be consider as twice ba? 0o yup. hehes.

since i cant figure out yet, i shall just remove those post and save as draft first. (: *ROAR!

yuppie. probably......... hehehe. ok i dono wad im saying now. gtg sleep le (: nights! =D zzzzz

yup so went to andy's bday bash today (: quite enjoyable i must say, i mean the last few parts lah ahha.

was suppose to meet jeris at 2.30 at tpy mrt station, in the end she 3pm den turn up -.- cos her bus came late. LOL. den we rushed down to pasir ris, and when we reach pasir ris, it was only like, 3.30?? yup lol. reached there and then we saw a bus, and we thot it was de shuttle bus, we rush towards it and then, no its not, its for those army. -.- den we turn our heads, and we really saw the shuttle bus, rush there, but too late. den nvm lo, we tried flagging for taxis, and i tell u, singapore taxi services is really VERY bad lah. we waited till like, 4+ and no taxi is in sight, except for those hired and on call ones. like so RAHHS! nvm lo, den the shuttle bus finally came and me and jeris were like, going crazy le lor.

den after that when we reach the chalet, they don let us in, say wad registration starts at 5pm. im like, wth. fine lo, den we wait outside. and!! ME AND JERIS WERE THE FIRST TO REACH THERE BESIDES THOSE ORGANISERS LAH!!! den after that when the door finally opened, the 3rd batch of fans went in first, den we blur blur let lor. den wth! THEY TOOK OUR ROOM LAH!!!!!!!!!!!! the rest of the rooms were out of bounds cos is meant for the trio and the organisers. im like, walao!!! me and jeris were feeling so unfair lor! then we quite moodless lah.

den after that jt andy and awi finally came, den we went out to see them, AND! yvonne was with them, im like, roar? 00!! omg lo. cos it so happen that von and her frens took de same mrt with the trio. den dono why, the trio took jt's car, den von they all took cab, and her cab is right infront of jt's car. im like, OMG! 00!!

den the trio were busy so we slack by ourself. my mood quite bad le lah, cos of cy. like she was the one who say she wanna talk to andy de, den let her talk tt time she say later. den later i ask her, she say busy. im like, wth lah, forget it im not helping u le. den jeris keep saying dont i feel bad asking and wad crap de. like wad, is i willingly wanna do, i feel bad or not no need u to care ma. wlao, i dono lo. i feel so crap lah, like at the moment i really wanna scram home lor. sigh

den after that went to find andy, pass him the present, and ask him to open and see. den he see, den he say orh ok thx. LOL. den he still offer us handshake and say happy belated bday. im like, 00!! ok, i noe u like tt phrase, but no need to say tt everytime u see us right -.- LOL. den crap abit w him. den he hor, my god, really can faint. cos i was hugging the pillar ma, den he say wad, why u keep hugging the pillar? it look like him ah? him.. wad's his name again ah? urm... den he guess de name out, den im like, andy lee, u was a bash, or a kick? u ownself decide -.- rahhs lo. ROAR lol. den after tt he noe jeris' de too. den he ask jeris wad's her one called. den she say celia. im like, 00! ok nvm u win. den andy say i one foot step 3 boats - him, jeris and de pillar, i was like, pillar?! ................................... okie. -.- den we went off le. eat our mini dinner den yup. den andy cut cake. den he was giving a short speech, den cut, den eat. LOL. yup. den jeris gtg le, den keep asking andy to come. den jeris take pix le, den i also wanna take, den he say, eh liddat y'all 2 de ... wont jealous ah? den im like, ANDY LEE! take photo still ask so much ques for wad?! blah lo. den take le, den asked him abt it le lor. den he ask me, this kind of matter why must ask until so shen mi? ... den im like ...


ah? err $2 can le la. (cos i dont dare to ask for more le =x) den he say say $2 ah? orh ok lor (his kou qi is like, $2 only wad, so scared for wad tt kind -.-) den give me, den jeris say bye, den say bye to jt and awi den see her off. den yihlin asked jt where he stay, den he say east side. den i told him, i noe east side, everyone noes lor. den he look at me and point at me and say, u noe right?? den i give a 00!!?? face. den he say, oh u dono nvm. den im like -.- LOL. yup.
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den yihlin n jeris left, den left w me and von. den we went to jt there, den i hear him talk really can sleep lo, cos i was v tired le, and plus i din really communicate w them this time round. yah. den after tt go kitchen there, den awi came to join us, den we started our chinese lesson w awi -.- LOL. we keep correcting his chinese la, den keep laughing, cos in his memory, all de words are di 4 sheng. -.- LOL. den awi also tried to get pple to eat cos left alot of curry puff. so when pple come he will say "curry puff?" den we were like, u pro at selling curry puff le la. LOL! den andy walk pass, den von fren say, awi ur job. den awi said in those very sian tone "curry puff?" to andy. den andy is like, huh huh huh? den walk away. LOL so funny lah! hahaha!! den when awi was trying to say tomato ketchup in chinese, he say as fang jian (in english means room) .. den andy just nice came and join us for a while, den he was like, staring at awi in those weird weird face. like thinking to himself, "since when room become liddat??" den andy told awi, huh? this is a room? den we all started laughing till all of us stomach ache lo. really v funny lor! HAHAHAH.

den after tt wanna ask andy if he like de gift, den i stand there wait, cos he talking to other fans, den he saw me, den he ask me what? den im like, huh nth, cont talking. cos my ques not v impt la. den after tt von n me decided to go home le, so we took our bags, say bye to awi, den go wear shoe. den i saw andy, den shout to him tt we're going home le, so he put his things in the room and came den send us off to de door. i asked andy if he like de gift, den he say yup, and he will wear it. if pple dono what is his name, at least got a name to tell pple. im like.. orh ok LOL. den i told him tt actually me n jeris saw other things tt wanna buy for him de, den we finally bought tt cos we walked till giddy le. LOL. den he is like 0o? can walk till giddy de ah? LOL. yup. den we we said bye to jt too la. den he also send us off to de door LOL. yup. den actually can see tt andy and jt wanna send us out to de reception de, but .. so sad lo, not their chalet, so need to entertain fans too, so no choice lo. den jt gave us handshake say dono when will see us again. den im like, aiyo. don say till so.. so sad la. aiyo. den bye den we went out le.

saw a taxi when we left aloha, den took de taxi to pasir ris mrt station. den me n von were talking abt awi lo. so funny la, den we were talking till so happily till got 3 guys came in. dey were like drunk la? den von say, "oh no, they are drunk" den i got freaked out la. but still, we don care them and continued our convo. but i was really scared la, cos their actions really v drunk those kind lor. rahhs!! den when changing mrt that time, me and von quickly zoom out to the end of the train there, den phew! den continue talking again. by tt time we were v tired le. yup. den reached home at 11.48pm. wah so late LOL. but shuang la haha. yup

hmmm i feel v bad lo. like, i din really talked to them today. whole day kept my mouth shut, only sometimes will talk. cos like really v long nv see them le, den like, today dono how to talk or start a topic. den im like, ah forget it, keep quiet can le. yup. den when im quiet tt time, i looked stress????? jt just suddenly say dont stress to me. im like. huh will meh?? 0o? lol! yup.

oh and cy flew off le. she smsed me when i was in the mrt. say wad she is waiting inside le, but haven fly yet, but soon. den after tt chat w her via sms, den she say she flying le, bye. at tt time, i really wanna cry lor. really, i felt like crying. i really wanna go, esp w my frens. is like, sighhh. ok nvm i now very tired le. so tt it for today ba? yup

devil and angel is having a cold war now. why? cos i scotch taped their mouth le. -.- today is really a tiring day for me. cos i slept quite late last night. yeah.

amath test today, and it was horrible. should not have checked my work, cos the more i check, more different answers will surface, and when time is running out, i will start to panick, and result in super wrong answers. how great can it get? RAHHS!

holiday starts tmr, for sec3s and 2s. HAHA, camp in house. LOL. (= this means i get to sleep more! yeah! LOL.

yup. just now thot got show to watch de, in the end dont have, dont of them like logs lo. rahhs.

and he is damn cute today lah, HAHA (=

ok my mood really not good now. just dont come and disturb me today. best is to leave me alone.

went to sungei buloh today and i was really v tired. my friend's dad drove us there, finished 50 surveys by 2. slacked and talked to the counter boy. think he is really v bored that he have so much to talk about? lol. thats our source of entertainment -.- lol.

den after that came back, and started quarreling with my mum again. like so wth lah. all the f word, cb, and everything came out. told u my mood is really bad today le. (& i did try to control wor) i really feel so tired lah. i hate to put on a false front, i hate to just listen to my parents scolding me and i cant rebuke. everything burst out today, after accumulating for so long. and not just because my mum scold me den i scold back, is cos she ______ me. WTH CAN! that moment i really want to leave this freaking hell. leave and not come back again.

maybe also cos of ytd. something happened. and i dont wish to say. really DONT ever judge a book by its cover. he really.. i dono lah. i dont hate him, i just dislike him alot. for a particular reason.

shall elaborate on yesterday's entry bah. lol starting from... band concert?

went for band concert and jeris was crazying -.- really. then concert start and it was.. ok the starting was abit... i dono how to say, but 2nd half was really nice! =D lol YMCA! LOLOL!! fairytale (: haha, reminds me of someone... hehehe and then after it ends, we wanted to go to the locker to get our books and stuff, but they blocked the way, im like WAH! =( so in the end have to go back school to take my books for my tuition. den after that we left school, took mrt home. im not silly to take 56 home at night cos the alley is freaking scary at night, so deserted so quiet. it'll freak me out lah =x then after that on the way home, jie told me that her fren saw andy and jt and awi at the dance thingy. jt was the judge, and andy and awi went to watch. asked her fren if i could talk on the phone with anyone of them. haha

talked to andy and our convo is really 'silly' lol!
andy + me: hello? ni shi shui
me: URM... ah wo shi celia ah
andy: ohh wo shi andy lah.
me: ah ni you kan dao wo send ni de frenster message ma? na ge important de
andy: hao xiang you lei. wo hui jia cai qu kan.
me: orh ok. ming tian shi ni de sheng ri hor?
andy: en dui.
me: na zhu ni sheng ri kuai le!
andy: haha xie xie, ni hui lai hor?
me: huh? birthday celebration?
andy: en
me: en en yi ding hui qu de (:
andy: orh ok lo. na jiu zhe yang lo.
me: en, ok bye?
andy: bye bye
me: bye.

end of convo. lol. told u he was in the rush le. lol. den i asked him who he was because jt was there, den i dono if is jt or andy =x opps hehee. but anyway, thanks jie! =D and of course thanks caroline (liddat spell ma?) THANKS ALOT! =D lol

yup back to today. went back to school and had abit of quarrelling on the way. wadsoever lah. so crap can. i cant be bothered anyway. cos i shall try to be a happy celia from now on. TRY lah. hehe. then went back with jeris (my dad fetched us there) den we went to the locker. thought that guides were all in the zoo doing the rainforest trail (-.-) but when we go to the locker there, ms teo's homeroom de light was switched on. both of us sort of freaked out lah. 0o!!! ok i say first ah, i din pon guides hor. is i got tuition den cannot go de. yes, i cant afford to miss tuition again, i missed like dono how many due to the thinking day rehearsal can. roars! yup, so im a good girl, i dint pon hor. lol. yup

den after that went to mac buy breakfast and their service is really bad. ok probably cos of the quarrelling lah. my parents quarrelled from the time we left house until i reached home can, like wth, and they just dragged me into the quarrelling just liddat. so wth lah. then yah, i was getting impatient that i just said, "they think i alot of patience isit?!" and they came out with my food -.- lol? rushed home and my tuition teacher came -.-

den my tuition just end, abit not happy lah, cos... of the quarrelling? seriously, i dont like to be home. if i can, i wanna go out with my frens/someone till late at night or not go home lo. really. haix. lalala? i dono wad im saying now? hoho bye then? lol

anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY!
hope that it'll be a fun-filled day for you today!
wo hui ting ni dao di de! (:

IGNITE D' AMORE today, and what more could i say? fantastic! yes. however, if it could be longer, it would be better. lol haha. probably it was those few words that really made my day, and hence a rather hyper celia today? and really, nothing can bring down my hyper mood today! =DD

was supposed to have geog presentation today, but is postponed till next term. (: oh thank goodness! (: but really thanks joanna's fren and that person for helping us though! yeps! =D yup, and those few words 'knocked' the door, and i was really happy =D

had chemistry, and mr kom showed us gruesome pictures of the victims in WWII -- after the bombs exploded in Japan. there are much gruesome pictures, but he did not want to show us, cos i think he knows that some of us are like, a little gross out? yup. never mention vapourised to me. its totally.. gruesome to me, and sad as well. yup

den recess and i was really very very hyper LOL. i got my ai de qi ji 3 le!!! thanks jie!!! =DDDD lol

yup! math, and its de first time i totally just switched off from her class. opps hehe. lol. i was doing my own thing la, hehe. since she is teaching stuff that i noe le. lol

yup. den guides, had korean culture n language course, and we get to try on those korean costume! i tried on 2, and i like de green and pink one! =D its so pretty lah. lol. camwhored (not really thou) with jeris since both of us are in a very hyper and happy mood lol

den me n jeris went to j8 for dinner. yup and changed and rushed back to school. waited for cy and jeris kept omg-ing. like so roaring can -.- LOL! yup. den concert was really nice, esp the 2nd half! =DDD yup! Y-M-C-A ! lol!!!

reached home at 10+ and i talked to andy!!!! =D ok its de same feeling of talking to them in person? but my 'dream' came true lol. yup. he really sound in a rush so i din talk much. convo of us will be kept as a secret. cos quite 'stupid' la lol!

yup shall end here ba. really tired now. haha yup.

so i thought i will be fine today. ho, it didnt turn out that nice anyway. luckily no one (only daphne) saw me ..... ****** bleah =P wont say. haha. yup. after that, when i stopped, i thought of somethings, and boom, everything is coming back again -.-

not that i want to think too much. is i cant control my brain ma. lala? hmm yah. den after that, my mood was so rotten that well... i had... ******* again.

hmmm, watched over the hedge during CME today, and it was so cute lah! =D probably, "laughter is the best medicine" is really true. (: felt better laughing out loud lah. yup (:

walked home under de rain (it wasnt really raining la, just small drizzle) yup & i wont fall sick de (: yup. -.- lol? k stop here ba, have to complete my homework le (:

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oh my. wads wrong with my memory these few days. after i said i wanted to do my homework, de next moment i forgot wad i was suppose to do. rush thru my homework at night and only realised that i haven completed de geog presentation. can faint la. thought jeris' diskette could work, and i heave a sigh of relief and in the end it could not. digged out all de disc i have and i couldnt save. both of us got sooooooooOOOOOOOO desperate that we practically went SOOOO completely mad. i came out with a crazy idea, and thought it was too crazy and i went around asking pple. =x and finally someone got a diskette. lets hope it works.

*PRAYING HARD!!*

oh and it.... WORKS!! omgosh... im overwhelmed with excitement (oh wadeva it is spelled as) ah, i love that person can! =D hahahaha! i swear that person is the sweetest person ever! =D haha! gosh, im overeacting. lol.

oh and reading the 2 amandas' blogs reminds me of wad happened yesterday. i was so frigging pissed + scared = i could cry lah. thankfully i dint lah. ohwells, yes her remarks were very harsh and insulting, and i do still have this little hatred toward her. but well, its a fact that we really gotta buck up especially in our languages. (chinese test: lowest mark -- 10+/100, highest mark -- 60+/100, many pple failed. how WONDERFUL -.-) its totally ... i dono wad to say. im speechless. rahhs! however, i strongly believe that she shouldnt just critises like that, and expect us to change for the better. she SHOULD noe how to really get us motivated instead of slapping us with some insulting words. i can only tell u that IT WONT WORK. -.- yes. and NEVER expect us to achieve the results u want us to get just because we're in 3love. we're not much of a diffrence from other classes, so get this right.

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my bad day today, perhaps. everyone is feeling depressed today (excluding mad jeris -.-) cries and more cries. i can comfort them, yes, but i cant comfort myself? ihate all these that is happening now. not the friday 13, right? no its not, den why is everything bad happening today? i dono lah.

phoebe, dont worry k? she will be fine tmr hopefully. who noes is just false alarm? yups. dont too sad yah? (:

hmmmm. yup. just leave me alone for today. i will be fine tmr, i think.

had abit of gastric just now. morning din eat cos i cant eat in the morning. unless u wan to see me puke. recess din eat cos i dont eat during recess de. after sch rush home, and i dropped dead till tuition start. like roar? after tuition is alr 6. so like.. can imagine right? LOL. den my mum haven cook dinner yet, so eat chocolate and sweets to fill my stomach -.- LOL!

had PE today, ran 5 rounds. 3 slow jogs, warm ups, den one run, den push ups, den another run and den soccer. cows. mr chua say must eat breakfast if not we everytime will feel sick after running. not don want to eat lei... is i really cant eat -.- LOL. den by the end of PE, my head spinning le. -.- wadeva craps lah. den went to the canteen and signed up for the courses guides had for us. LOL. yup. joined 3 courses in total i think. yup (:

then during math.. really really cant cope with math now. sighhh. like i dono wad on earth mass cheok is teaching la. even when my tuition teacher explain to me, i still very confuse about it lah. esp Amath. sighhhhhh.... my grades this year sure will drop terribly de. sigh. )=

den rained lor. rahhs. aiyah. i dono wad crap im typing now. so tata. end here le. i hate being so weak. )= feel so helpless can? )= oh and andy replied me? and im not so exicted abt his reply from now onwards. rahhs him lah! i knew he will be SOOOOOOO KPO if he noe abt it lah. den no he is lecturing me and wadnots de. say wad, i zi you fen cun jiu hao, must focus in studies and wadnots de... cant he just ... urmm.... trust me or smth? that im sensible enough to do wad is right, and not do wad is wrong? lol? yah hhaa. (aiyah, jie, see wad u had done la. seeeee!! rahhs!!!!) shall end here le. toodles~